Soooo... I have not kept up my bargain and documented every cool fun new thing going on with me. Probably because it's been pretty dead lately. That's not true just lazy. We'll since last time I went out with my crush in Sunday Jan 12. It was a Sunday so it's that considered a date?? It was a bit awkward I mean I wanted to see him and bring up all our texts and past behavior but I chickened out! Bummer I think I missed my opportunity :(  I really feel like there is something there between us but there is hesitation for so many reasons. I must be patient and not scare the guy away. But no promises. So that day we watched Lone Survivor at the movies, it was awesome. I didn't even cry, like I usually do. Maybe because it wasn't a romantic comedy, ha! Before the movies we ate at Tiago's in the same shopping center. Food was good although I didn't finish my plate and hopefully he doesn't think less of me. I'm just soo nervous around him. He did pay for the meal and I offered to pay for the movies. We walked over to the movie theater and he suggested we go upstairs and grab a drink at the bar. He got us 2 Bud Lites. In the movie theater I could not believe I was sitting next to him!!!! It did suck when my small bladder gave out and I had to go to the restroom in the middle of the movie. Embarrassing. I can just picture it now: my small scrawny frame silhouette moving along the projector screen! Yikes!  On the drive back home ( yes he offered to pick me up at my place !) I was just thinking about the texts but could not bring them up. Ugggh! The following day at work he IM'd me and said he almost cried at the end of the movie. He contacted me first! Then we chatted about what we did the rest of that Sunday, and then he said goodbye as he was leaving for the day. The next day I stopped by his desk and handed him a copy of 24 hour party people. Just another excuse to see him :) I hope he doesn't forget to watch it or hand it back to me, I would like to see him again. Later that week I saw him in the hallway and he was on the phone. He waved but seemed annoyed at something. Later that day he IM'd me the reason. I have not had any texts, calls , IMs since :( I'll give him some space I know I/ relationships can be a distraction. I know he is busy enough with school and work, but I think we should make time for romantic relationships. We'll see how this pans out. To be continued....
In other news I checked out a new club this past Saturday called Brass Monkey. It is marketed as an 80s and 90s club, but all I heard was very obscure 80s sounding music. But such good music it was! Later on in the night the dance floor got full which is the way I prefer it. I will definitely need to check out more places on N. St. Mary's Street. Til next time, Carpe Diem.... or whatever.

Why is it that when I try to avoid someone I run into him?

Day 2

I woke up late this morning. What a way to start off this new year. I better fix this right away before I get use to it. My little girls looked adorable in their pjs as mommy was scrambling to get ready. 

My time management is getting better at work. But it's hard to concentrate with my crush always on my mind. Sometimes I wish I never met him. I wouldn't be acting like such a girl right now. 

I tried my best to not run into him at work. I even left for lunch later than usual. Sure enough. I ran into him at work! Why world? I get so fucking nervous, I can't shake it off. While I'm pretty sure he's cool as a cucumber. Men. We were both heading out to lunch. But I already made up my mind I wanted to buy a fleece sweater during my lunch. So I did at REI. He followed me to the 5th floor of the parking garage, which is weird since he normally doesn't park there in the mornings. So we get to the top, and he cutely says 'I did not park here.' Great he's nervous!

Please, I don't want to bump into him I want to think about something else for awhile. 
Later on in the day I did stop by his desk and gave him some wedding cookies. A coworker on my team had brought some for us. I thought he would like them too. He is soo into desserts :)

My goal this weekend is to just chill with my daughters. Set up the wii, pay some bills, wash clothes( ugh), and maybe clean the toilet. Maybe.

I felt foggy all day today. I couldn't shake it off. Lately I can feel my liver inside of me. I think I have been working it too hard.  I need to rest for awhile. Goodnight.

Day 1 of 2014

Wednesday, Jan. 1, 2014




So....

I decided today during brunch that I wanted to document this year. "I am going to start a blog," I said just loud enough for my sister to hear. Perla just looked at me and said 'you go do that.' I'm in a different state of mind, and feel like big surprises are in store for me! So I want to document everything--especially since I have a terrible memory. I am not a writer but want to keep a journal of my adventures. And why not do it online no less! Besides, in the very near future we will no longer use pen and paper. Leave it to me to start a blog on my cellphone. I currently do not have a computer or internet/wi-fi :( But I must be patient, things are going to change....




Last night was awesome!!!! Ringing in the New Years with my 2 sisters (and their boyfriends) was incredible. We were silly together, we laughed and danced our asses off! We spent the night dancing at http://www.elysiumonline.net/index.html . It was a cool alternative club. Just perfect. Then we got kicked out because Jesse threw-up in front of the bartender! Good times. We had pizza across the street which seemed like the best pizza in the world when drunk and starving.

Slept in the next day and had brunch at http://anniescafebar.com . If my first day of this year is this awesome I am going to have fun like never before! Can't wait......




Oh yeah.... I forgot.... my crush wished me a happy new year at 12:02 am!!!! I'm just saying.... I showed everyone that text, I am in a major crush mode. What to do--- he said...To be continued......




Todays Bernyism: '....let's wait til we all get home and unpack to see if we find your phone, if I do or do not I'll text you to let you know.'---Referring to Perla's lost phone....she gave me that look that basically said how the fuck are you going to text me if I lost my phone. Priceless.




Things I want for this year.....fun, adventures, memories, continue watching my 2 beautiful daughters grow, love, passionate head over heels crazy in love crush....can't wait :)



But first, sleep.